Despite working on several various projects today, I feel muddled, stuck. This became more clear to me after reading the Mindful Knitting article in Knitty.com Summer 07 edition. There are many things I could be doing with L4’s nap-time, but I’m sitting at my computer. I want to create, but my mind feels covered in goo, for lack of a better word. After I finish this post I might bake some cookies (to ease my soul) or work on a sock, or sew L3’s pants. But what I really want is to let my mind escape to a world of creativity and vision. Unfortunately, I have lost the key, the password, the way.
What do you do when you feel this way? How do you find the secret entrance once more?
A little voice is whispering to me that I need to get out in Nature and observe Her, that watching through my living room window as I type isn’t enough. Something is holding me back, however. Maybe I’ll be able to figure it out this afternoon and will have some lovely epiphanies to share later.
In closing, here is a quote from The Psychology of Environmental Problems, a book I am reading for a new course I’d like to teach in the spring of ’08 if I’m allowed.
The environmental crisis is an outward manifestation of a crisis of mind and spirit. There could be no greater misconception of its meaning than to believe it is concerned only with endangered wildlife, human-made ugliness, and pollution. These are a part of it, but more importantly, the crisis is concerned with the kind of creatures we are and what we must become in order to survive. (Lynton K. Caldwell, quoted by G. T. Miller, 2002, p. 1)