At least for a little while! Today is a work-from-home day, with L4 by my side. I have done work, but not all of it has been for my “day job.” That’s where the guilt comes in.
Me-Guilt: You really should be reading my textbook, updating those powerpoints grading those homeworks, answering emails….
Me-Bliss: I can still get all of that done, probably easier while at work tomorrow. For now I should just enjoy my time with L4, enjoy the crafting I can do, and realize that some of this might lead to a (very tiny) source of income someday.
Me-Guilt: But, but, you should be doing all of the work-stuff. You need to do a good job!
Me-Bliss: Yes, I do need to do a good job. But I already am. I’ve taught all of these classes. And frankly, they simply aren’t paying me a full-time salary, so why on earth should I feel guilty about not putting in full-time hours?
Me-Guilt: Poof! She’s gone (for now).
Thus went the conversation in my head this morning. Ironic that I’m about to teach Freud to my Intro Psych class because the above conversation so sounds like something one might hear between the Ego and the Superego if one believed in such components of personality. 🙂 So what did I do?
- the rows on my gift knit from yesterday that I just couldn’t get done because of various life things.
- finished L4’s first sock. She put it on and hasn’t taken it off yet. The proof:
- started sock #2. I’m about to turn the heel for it.
- worked on one of my Etsy projects while basking in the sun with L4:
And though I am now blogging shamelessly, I actually have my textbook propped open, have been reading about sex chromosome anomalies, but will probably skip the grading until at least this evening, if not tomorrow during office hours.
Do any of you ever have the conversations with yourself like the one above? What are they usually about? Do you resolve them? As always, I love reading your comments, thank you for leaving them!